On the move again

Good news is the mouth sores stayed better.  I had a couple in the last few weeks, but one at a time and they didn't take weeks to get better, so that was good.

The bad news is that while Afinitor was working great on creating canker sores, it wasn't working as well on my cancer.  I had an ultrasound last week and found out yesterday that there's more growth in my liver, so moving on.

It really isn't overly surprising, I guess.  So far since my stage IV diagnosis in February of 2014, we've been working through the arsenal of anti-hormonal drugs.  But of the Tamoxifen, Faslodex, Ibrance and Letrozole, Afinitor and Aromasin, only the Faslodex (my 1st stage IV treatment) had any real success.  After my cancer evolved around that, it seems to have been able to outsmart that type of treatment no matter what the form.  But I really had hoped for better.

The cancer in my liver didn't increase by that much, but my oncologist doesn't want to keep throwing time at the Afinitor given my history, so I stopped taking Afinitor and Aromasin yesterday and will begin a chemo drug called Xeloda as soon as my insurance and specialty pharmacies can get it together and send it to me, probably in a couple of weeks (but, obviously, given my history with insurance and specialty pharmacies, I don't recommend holding your breath, unfortunately).

Xeloda is supposed to be an easy chemo (as far as chemo goes, I guess), not like the dose dense adriamycin-cytoxan-taxol I was on at stage III.  It's not an infusion, it's a pill (well, 6 pills a day for 7 days, then 7 off, then on again, actually) and it doesn't typically cause hair loss so I'm not back to the wig just yet.

It can cause nausea, vomiting, other GI issues, and fatigue, but less often than what people think of with chemo.  It can also cause mouth sores, but I guess at least if it does, I'm good at working through those by now, right?

The big side effect, most common and most impactful, is something called Hand Foot Syndrome (not to be confused with Hand Foot Mouth Disease, which isn't a side effect of any chemo drug).  Hand Foot Syndrome is a painful burning, swelling, redness, chafing, blisters and peeling on the palms of the hands and soles of the feet.  Lovely.

But not everyone gets it and even if it does happen, the severity seems to vary a lot and really bad cases aren't common, so that's good.

My nurse practitioner has me taking really good care of the skin to get it in as good shape as possible when I start.  And the 7-on-7-off schedule is supposed to help prevent worse side effects as opposed to the older 14-on-7-off regime.  So I guess we'll see. I know I tolerated chemo pretty well the last time in 2012, so who knows?  I may dodge the worst ones this time around, too.  

And, to be honest, if I have to walk around limpingly for the next decade with flayed palms and soles frightening children with my blistery hands and who knows what other kinds of side effects of various unpleasantness, it will be ok.  If it works for a while against the cancer, I can live with the rest.

Doesn't mean I won't whine about it constantly, because you know I'll do that!  But where there's whining, there's life, right?  (just try and remember that when I'm at my most obnoxious, ok?).

For those of you who find big words as amusing as I do: by now my cancer has beaten an anthracycline antitumor antibiotic, alkylating agent, tubulin-targeting therapy, an estrogen receptor blocker, estrogen receptor downregulator, cyclin-dependent kinase 4/6 inhibitor, 2 different aromatase inhibitors, and a mammalian target of rapamycin inhibitor.  But it has never seen the likes of Xeloda's thymidylate synthase inhibitor action before.  

And for those of you who have the sense of humor of a 12 year old the way I apparently do: Xeloda can be taken as a pill and not an infusion because it is synthesized in the liver into a compound called 5-FU which is the thing that does the thymidvlate synthesis inhibiting.  For my 5th treatment regime since my last clear scan in 2012, maybe sending the cancer a little gift of FU will be an auspicious sign.

We shall see...